How?

how can the one
be one and the same
as the one that i love
and the one driving me insane?

how can smiles
be smiles swept away
with cascading tears
i fear will stay?

how can the first
be the first and last
someone to trust
absolve me of my lying past?

how can i be so strong
and yet so weak
my head so rationale
my soul so meek?